"I don't know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have nothing to lose. I 've already lost everything. If you are reading this I might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost myself in loving. Yet you tortured me everyday. These days I see no light. I woke up not wanting to wake up. There was a time I saw my life with you,a future with you. But shattered my dreams. I feel dead inside. I have never given so much of myself to someone or cared so much. You returned my love with cheating and lies. It didn't matter how many gifts I gave you or how beautiful I looked for you. I was scared of getting pregnant but I gave myself completely, the pain you have caused me everyday has destroyed every bit of me,destroyed my soul. I can't eat or sleep or think or function. I am running away from everything. The career is not even worth it anymore. When I first met you,I was driven,ambitious and disciplined. Then I fell for,a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don't know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain,the rape,the abuse,the torture I have seen previously I didn't deserve them. I didn't see any love or committment from you. I just became increasingly scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was about partying and woman. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here,I will crave and miss you. So I am kissing my 10-year old career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to trust. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never met anyone with Karthik. I just wanted you to feel how you made me feel constantly. No other woman will give you as much as I did. I can write that in my blood. Things were looking up for me here,but is it worth it, when you constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to abuse you or threatens to hit you or cheat on you,telling other girls they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go and then they lie to your face or they make you chase after them in their car. Or disrespects their family. You never even met my sister, I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to breathe anymore. All I wanted was loved. I did everything for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed,my happiness snatched away from . I always wished the best for you,was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment. You never appreciated my love,kicked me in the face. I have no confidence or self esteem left,whatever ambition you took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I waited for you for ten days and you didn't bother buying me something. The Goa trip was my birthday present but even after you cheated all I spent on you. I aborted our baby when it hurt me deeply,you destroyed my Christmas and birthday dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday special. You chose to be away from me on Valentine's day. You promised me onced we made it to own year,we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying,your women and your selfish motives. All I wanted was you and my happiness,you took both away from me. I spent money selflessly you would throw in my face. I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you had loved me like I love you. I dreamt of our future. I dreamt of our success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty promises. All I want now is to go to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I felt so alone even with you. You made feel alone and vulnerable. I am so much more than this."
Yours truly, Rabiya Khan. Her mother found the letter in her wallet searching for poems written by her. The actress allegedly hung herself at home in Mumbai,India last weekend. <<>>BUT WHY ARE SOME GUYS SO HEARTLESS,RETURNING LOVE WITH THE OPPOSITE?. But why will a girl even kill herself because of a guy who does not care? I trust Nigerian babes,they no go fall hand for this side. BUT THE GUY IS ACTUALLY AN INGRATE. He was even arrested Monday night,after the victim's mother petitioned the police. Suraj will appear in Court on the 13th of this month for an indirect murder.
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